Unrhymable Rhymes

The Call !

2011-01-31T11:35:00.000-08:00

Credits:
Sitanshu Gupta (image)
Piyush Distawar (Inital poem lines)

A New Beginning !

2010-11-29T06:16:00.000-08:00

I saw her seated on stool next to bar, half on it and half hanging herself. Like every other night, she was drunk beyond control. She was still very beautiful. I made my way to her and whispered, "Honey, Let's go home. It's late." She saw me, smiled one of my favorite smile and said, "No honey party has just begun. I want to enjoy here". It was tough for me to reason with her specially in her such state, so I said in a firm voice, "You had enough fun, Let's go home". "You told me to enjoy, so I'm enjoying, you decide what you want me to do, enjoy or not?", she said emptying her glass of vodka. I just stared at her blankly, was she really the innocent girl I met 10 years back, one who would smile for no reason and who could chuck off thousands reasons that can possibly make her sad. She was so full of life and was my constant source of happiness. Why my darling can't find those reasons again. Her next dialog was what each and every of my friend had heard a zillion times. "OK Hon Pack up time. The moods done", she said swinging her arms over my shoulders, "Take me back home where I have my dear empty house, my decorated walls, the expensive sofa, curtains awaiting my return. They missed me? Ohh I sooo miss them. Will you hold me and take me home dear". No matter how she is now, she is my wife, and I know she is not doing anything wrong, but just trying to deviate her mind. I took her by my arms, and made our way out, thanking and saying good bye to my friends, the entire pub belonged to friends list now.
By the time we reached home, Rynn was already sleep. I made my way to our bedroom, put her gently on the bed, kissed her goodnight and made way to kitchen. Ofcourse there was nothing cooked. I looked for something edible in refrigerator, found few slices of bread, ohh well it's better than not eating any thing.

The morning was nothing different, she was sleeping when I woke up. I showered and dressed up for office, well she was still sleeping. I kissed her good morning and rushed out. No matter how much late I get for work or sleep, it was one routine we had decided never to miss, to kiss and wish each otehr Good Morning and Good Night. I dont blame her for forgetting these too amongst several other things, all I know is that I'm still sane and I remember everything.

It was our daily routine, in the evening I would get call from one friend or the other telling me her where abouts, and I used to pick her up and head home. Her health was deteriorating, I was concerned but it was tough for me to scold her and see her cry. But I have to take a stand, I can not even watch her waste herself like this. I received call from Martha, Rynn was at her place today. I packed my stuffs and left for her place. I knew Martha doesnt drink so was thinking that atlast a day when Rynn would be sober, may be I can talk her out today. Alas, it never works as thought. She was already high when she had reached Martha's place. And now I understood why was she at her place, to play with her toddler.

She cried all the way back home, I was too speechless to say anything. When we reached home, she rushed to bedroom and buried her face under the pillow, "If Only, he was alive" was all that she murmured. I stroked her hair gently, I knew this was one topic which should have been discussed 6 months back. "Why didn't you come, why you left me alone?", she said still crying. "Honey if for once you will listen to me, please". Ofcourse she won't be listening but it's my last chance to correct all wrong, to tell her that it matters, that I'm hurt too. "Everything is gone, nothing is same, I lost my child for your work. Why Couldn't you come earlier? Work , Work and Work, Where is family, where are the promises, Why did you marry if you had no time, you killed him and no you are killing me.", she was shouting. I had no option but to raise my voice and i shouted for first time in our 10 year relationship, "Enough Rynn, Let me speak and then cry as much as you want". My sudden anger shuddered her, as I had never raised my voice, and seeing it with full emotion made her atleast stop shouting, I hugged her and stroked her as her sobs subsided. That was when i decided to say, "You think I did not love our son, that I never took care of him, then tell me my darling why was I working so much , if not for a better living for us. That day when you were waiting for me to take him to hospital, I had met with a terrible accident. You accuse me that I sold our old car and bought a new one within a week of his death, dear, the car was beyond repair, such was the intensity of accident, I had lost my sense altogether and you were not in a good shape either, who could I tell you that you could have lost your world altogether that night, that your husband had cheated death and came back to take care of you?" . She said, "Then why you didn't tell me later". "'coz you chose not to come out of shock of our son's death. Had you been sane I would have shown you car's wreck but I thought it's better to be known to you as a murdered than to hurt you more". Tears started flowing in her eyes, she said, "And you tolerated me all this while". "He said, I promised you that I will always be with you. I remember my promise. Do you remember yours dearest. You ever thought we could have divided our sorrows together, been each others companion in tough time than fighting this battle alone miserable and unsuccessfully".

I can't say my words had any effect on her or not, she left the room crying, and I had nothing more to say.
The next morning made no difference and I rushed to office. Through out the day I wondered about her but no call from her assured me that she has again gone back to drowning her sorrow in alcohol. In the evening I called up friends to know her where about but she didn't contact them. Worried, as I was, I went to bar and searched her all around and then each of her friends house, to my utter dismay no one knew.

I reached home shattered, worried where she is, I saw all lights off, hence sure that she wanst at home either.

I used my keys to enter house and found a strange aroma in place, sweet to be precise, like fresh flowers roses and lillies, I was shocked and tried to locate switches when I saw dim lights of chandelier of our living room on. And there I saw my darling like an angel, in her best attire ready with a cake and candle. I approached her and tried to speak, she put her hands on my mouth and said, "Darling I'm sorry, Happy Anniversary". What more could I ask ? I kissed her and toasted for our life happily ever after.

Master

2010-10-05T13:27:00.000-07:00

Bow in front of Thee

'coz I'm your Provider, Protector

and your Lord

I bring you the Food

and the Shelter

U bear my Fruit

and my Name forever

Yes, I'm the Master of your Fate and Future !!

I live this life with no fear

I breathe, I smile,

I live to cheer

For no use is the Food unless I touch

or the Shelter without my care

The Fruit of love cant prosper alone

For just the Name

No, You can't be the Master of my Universe !!

I Wish !!!

2010-09-15T04:33:00.000-07:00

"Another day ends in dust", I thought as I handed over my charge of the day, signed the sheets and got back on a humpy ride on jeep back to lounge. Today marks my 2nd anniversary with Armed Forces, which made me retrospect the tenure, "WASTED" was all I could think off. As a child, I always stood out in matters of physical labor. Blame it on my non vehicle upbringing which made me walk miles with my father to get household items or a simple living, but walking, running, climbing or any amount of labor was my passion. I had always been a Man of Action, ready to do anything at any cost. I realized my full potential during my training months and that is when I was sure that my decision wasn't wrong. But now, after 2 years of serving the Nation with registers, sheets, routine calls, creating bunkers, just watching over border I question, "Where is the action" ? No this doesn't satiate me, I need more out of life.
As the jeep stopped to collect more officers, I stepped out and decided to walk, but awaited my dinner partner and only friend in this otherwise monotonous solitary life. Most of our dinner time talks were on war, politics and that how much potential we have to grill the enemies. As he came out from his duty, I watched him walk swiftly across the corridors. It was a pleasure watching his strong body walk swiftly, he was like me in more than one ways. We joined Forces on same day, part of same training batch, and as luck had it, we were posted at same location.

Our greeting was never more than a firm handshake, no words exchanged, it was like that we never start a conversation, but continued a conversation after a gap. But today he seemed different, happy being the closest word. "I'm going to be relocated !!", he exclaimed as he took my hand. "Wow !! where?". "The order still needs to be out, but I'm assured that in upcoming days I will be posted in the disturbed areas further East. Now that would be action". "True", was wht I could answer, though I was happy for him but even I wanted to be part of action, my loneliness had just multiplied itself so I told him that I will walk my way back and meet him right on the dinner table.

I walked down the narrow lane and sat on a rock near by, speculating why was I not called for disturbed areas. Suddenly an enormous amount of light came from no where and everything around shuddered. I managed to get my hold and tried to see what happened, that was when I heard them scream. The jeep was hit by a bomb. I rushed towards the sound and witnessed the gruesome scene. There was blood everywhere and sound of people wailing in pain. It was tough to get them out but there were others too who heard the explosion and had come for rescue. I couldn't find him anywhere in jeep, that was when I heard a faint sound near the bushes, I rushed and saw him lying in pool of blood, his left hand and leg was severely damaged. I took him by arms and rushed to a rescue jeep which had just arrived. It took us several more minutes to get everyone to the nearest base hospital. By the time last jeep left, it was late and tiring. I watched teh scene one last time and started to walk back to my room.

The walk back wasn't an easy one, all the horrific events of today started to play itself in front on my eyes. All my life I waited for some action to happen, that I wished that something wrong should happen so that I am called for rescue. I never thought my attempt to do something in life is actually a plea that something bad should happen to others. To be a saint, someone's knight in shining armor, I longed for sinner to come and harm others. Now that I got the action of my life, where my best buddy is badly injured, my colleagues wounded, I just say, "Look what you wish, it may become someone's nightmare"

Devotionary Ardor !

2010-08-01T13:29:00.000-07:00

In search of my destiny,

I walk a path laid out to you,

taken by many ages ago,

But its not the era I follow !

Tell me o Krishna Do I belong to you ?

I did not grow there with you,

or coquette you,

I was not watched by ur naughty eyes,

or my clothes picked by your hands !

yet O my Lord, I feel your eyes on me !

I did not send you any message,

or give up life else,

I did not marry you,

or bore your child !

yet O my Lord, I feel you in every bond !

Im not a royal heir,

or a poetess !

I did not dance in ecstacy of your love,

or renounce the world for u !

yet o my Lord, I feel you dancing with me in every step !

I'm not ur enchantress,

or your soul companion !

I did not wait for you forever

or see you walk away for ur karma !

Yet O lord, I feel your love in every breath !

I'm not a cowherd,

or a wife,

Im not a saint,

or a charmer !

Tell me o Krishna Am I in those thousands around ?

Tell me o Krishna Do I belong to you ?

Who said, my dear, it's the embrace I seek

I say, my dear, to take a leap of faith

and see

the cowherd, the wife, the saint, the charmer inside !

The Raas leela, an era ago

is alive in the hearts of one who follows !!

For those who did not understand a wee-bit of wht's written above, 2 pointers:

1) Look for color coding !

2) The last stanza is a reply !

Goals, destination, I wanna be .. !!

2010-05-03T11:40:00.000-07:00

While growing up we have been asked this question quite a many times, "What do you want to be?", "What is your goal?", "Where do you see yourself 5-10 years down the line?".

The answer to it wasn't dependent upon what we dreamt to be, but what was told that should be our dream and to some extent the generation we were born in played a vital role in it. During 80's the answer was "A successful Civil Engineer to turn people's dream into reality", 90's changed it to "I wanna be a doctor to cure all illness", in my generation it was, "A Software Engineer to create and destroy bugs", these days it is "Anything which gives me quick money".

What if the same question is asked after you have been successful in your chosen profession, what should be the answer? As a kid I was told that a person progresses in life based upon goals he/she sets for him/herself.

So when I was in school, my goal was to clear my exams, once exams were over, I had a new "same" goal but different standard attached until I reached college. During college years again my goal was to get through Engineering as soon as possible and get placed in a good company. I got placed in a reputed IT firm quite before my engineering was over, so that marks another goal complete. Now in IT industry, we do set our goals each year, despite that we switch jobs in search of a better company, better position, better money, Yes thats the unsaid goal during our career. So isn't this goal actually a vicious circle ?

Imagine yourself in that "better company, better position, better money" situation, now there is no way further, you have reached the pinnacle of your career, what should be your goal now ?

If our life progresses based upon goal then there comes a time when we have no more goals to achieve, what is the driving factor for life now ? That just proves that "goals" isn't what should be the elixir of life. Goals are the targets which we want to achieve in life, not destination where one would like to stop and rest. Our life progresses not based upon goals but based upon targets we achieved, what makes a life worth living is that the journey to those goals is full of happiness. That we seek the roses along the way of life but aware of thorns !

In our day to day worries and competitions, we tend to forget small things in life, we forget to be happy. There is no ultimate destination which we want to achieve in life, it's "Ultimate Happiness and Eternal Bliss" which is the final goal of life. Citing a small line from Taare Zameen Par: "Dil khush jahan, teri toh manzil vahan !!"

This post is just a reminder to be Happy coz that's how I will find my destination.

The Bridge Across Forever !

2010-04-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we're pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we're safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we're two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we've found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.

Stop crying your heart out !

2010-04-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hold up .... hold on ... don't be scared,

You'll never change what's been and gone,

May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared,

Your destiny may keep you warm !!

'Cos all of the stars are fading away,

Just try not to worry you'll see them some day,

Take what you need and be on your way,

And stop crying your heart out !!

Get up... Come on... why you scared,

You'll never change what been and gone,

May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared,

Your destiny may keep you warm !!

Essence of a Lady !

2010-04-04T00:53:00.000-07:00

As she arrived down the stairs

She had everything but the airs

She walked talked and greeted with grace

A man stood down watching her face.

"Hi", she said as their eyes linked

thought back is it inappropriate to lead

A Hi back made her feel relieved

The stars were right as they stared and smiled

A constant glare and a flood of questions began.

She answered with confidence but wondered if its worth the ail

As more and more questions began,

She wondered more is her flow chaste.

As it approached the final stage

She felt the stars showing her way

She knew in an instant its not worth the fright

A decision which will deliver its fruits with time.

So why to worry of what might that be.

She lives for the moment as happily as she can be

She knew the stars were not wrong when they said,

Essence of a lady lies is her confidence and grace.

The Bridges of Madison County

2010-03-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

“When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children, in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details. You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you're expected to move again only you don't remember what moves you because no one has asked in so long. Not even yourself.”
- The Bridges of Madison County

If true love comes when you already committed to another person who gives you all the security but the love you sought as a kid, adolescent, will you pick a new choice?
Francesca, an Italian woman, marries and migrates to Iowa with Richard, a soldier and farmer. After more than 15 years of marriage and two children, living in the county as a housewife and farmer, she encounters Robert Kincaid, a photographer who happened to drop by to ask for direction to Roseman Bridge.
The appearance of Robert stirs up Francesca’s dreams as a girl and the want to be loved just like a girl. In 4 days they fell in love with each other, but should she leave her responsibilities and go ahead to follow her dreams and love ?
The first reaction to this question is Yes, she should go ahead and do what her heart desires.
But Bridges of Madison County is different in this regard. Francesca decides to stay back for the family. Her care is far beyond the love she has for her husband, the photographer or her kids. She sacrifices herself for the happiness of the rest. She gives her life for her family and what is remaining of her (Ashes) to Robert.
If you are looking for a teenage romance, this is not the book for you, it stretches far ahead than romanticism, love, care and respect. It has no mushy love talks, lengthy love making sessions, it's more of a journey inside of you, questioning one's feelings, it's about A Man, A Woman and their passion which lasts a life time.
This is the best way I have seen the flow of emotions in words, never had there been a love so strong and never it had been described so aesthetically.
Ending it with Robert's quote he said on understanding her decision : 'The old dreams were good dreams; they didn't work out, but I'm glad I had them.’

Verdict: Beautiful, touchy, sensitive read.
Rating: 4/5 for book 1/5 for movie

Jeffery Archer's Paths of Glory

2010-01-31T10:11:00.000-08:00

“Why do you want to climb Mount Everest” ?

- Because it’s there !!

So said George Mallory.

History is known to record extraordinary events which happened this day that year. How often does it happen that something extraordinary gets overwritten by something more extraordinary? Answer is quite a many times, whenever the past failure is over ridden by someone’s success, we forget the one who came second. No one really remembers the one who came second, to add to it specially when they are unsuccessful BUT how do we call them unsuccessful? Simply because of the fact that there was nothing/no one to record if they were successful or not.

Paths of Glory is very unlike a Jeffery Archer book. First area of distinction is that although fiction, it acts as a biography of one of the failed mission to conquer Mount Everest.

The story beings in 1999, when a climbing party to Mount Everest found a frozen dead body which is confirmed to be George Mallory’s but with missing photograph of his wife, the meaning of which is realized in the last few pages.

After it the story chronologically follows George’s life. It’s an out and out Jeffery Archer’s book following George’s childhood exhibiting his natural instinct to be a climber, his college days which proves his ideology were indeed of the path not travelled by others, his first love, marriage, World War, kids all woven perfectly with his desire and dream of conquering mountains. “Paths of Glory” is what a man makes when he knows about his dreams and has the desire to fulfill them, it is not the path less traveled, it is the path a man travels day in and out in his mind, in his dreams because it is where his destiny awaits him. Makes me say, “Believe in dreams that you see, when your heart sleeps” !

This is a Jeff’s book when he sits to describe George’s life but missing his usual twists and turns writing style. It’s after the book is finished that we realize that all missing twist and turns is actually saved for the very last, which makes us question the present names in history and IF true, will ask history to be rewritten.

From the very beginning of book and because we know that Sir Edmund Hillary and Tenzig Sherapa are the first climbers of Mt Everest, it’s clear that George is not going to be successful. This makes us know the ending before we even start off the book, yet it’s the beauty of Jeff’s writing which makes us turn pages after another and keeps us glued until the last.

The book definitely is a good read, not just to know about George Mallory but the fact that it points out that how we tend to forget the less fortunate men because someone else had been luckier.

My salutes to all those unknown heroes, who are long lost in History.

Rating: 3.5/5

Present Era's smallest Story ever !!

2009-12-15T08:42:00.000-08:00

Ek tha Raja,

Ek thi Rani.

Dono ki ego ne kar di,

khatam kahani !!

There was a king

and a queen

Both of theirs ego

killed the story !!

Decision and Destiny !

2009-10-31T04:04:00.000-07:00

There are 2 types of people in the world - impulsive and non-impulsive.

Impulsive are the ones whose decisions are emotionally driven or rather they have an involuntary impulse to do something. More like a child, they decide in haste.
Non - impulsive are said to have control on their mind and feelings, their decisions are taken after a thorough thought process and there is always a rational reason behind why the road was not taken and why another was taken.

Now, what prompted me to think about "decisions", well it was my attempt to categorize myself in one.
I always thought that I'm impulsive, I make decisions in minutes, I don't really follow a particular thought process and I don't really care for outcome. But does that really makes me impulsive ??

I think decision making is more than what meet the eyes. Your decision is based more upon "circumstances" when you decide.
I might decide something in office when I'm fighting with my manager but when I sit alone, I know that is not my ultimate decision. But while I'm fighting I'm impulsive enough to reply him and that ki main uski band bajaun :D

Jokes apart, what I'm noticing now is that now I really care for my decision and what repercussion my actions might bring. So that makes me a non-impulsive freak. I always abhorred the idea of not taking own decision but now when I'm are not the one steering it has changed a lot of perspective. I'm enjoying sailing with the waves, letting a natural flow of events and reacting as and when destiny is unfolding its cards.

Reminds me - There was a time when we were young, restless and fearless, now we just act our age !! It now demands me to sit back and relish what it's offering.

Now, even if I decide [impulsively or non-impulsively] to let destiny play it's role, I know that it's ultimately my decision to let destiny play or was it destiny's decision that I will let it take charge ???

Second Chances !!

2009-10-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

It all started when I saw this question in one of the forums, "Do you believe in Second Chances ?".

The author intended to say that, "Pray and use Wisdom" !

My initial reaction to it was that Just praying and using wisdom but actually doing nothing or making no efforts, will not help anyone. It will just appease your ego that u did your share by praying and hoping, but until u make an effort everything is futile !

We always crib that our relation ended 'coz "neither he made any attempts nor I" or "yeah he called me, but I was angry I didn't attend and he never called again" or " I have issues in my house, we cant be together"etc etc.
I think there are more reasons as to why one did not made an attempt to talk !!

If effort was everything to be called for, then a call or a ping or even a glimpse would had ended the fight.

I believe relationships break not 'coz both of them had a fight and no one made effort or taht other did not realize the effort. It breaks 'coz one of them wanted it to be broken.

There are no second chances, no prayers answered or waiting hopes, but just a willful decision, I QUIT. !

Swades !

2009-10-29T10:38:00.000-07:00

Had seen this movie looooong back when it was released somewhere in 2005 but getting to write about it now.

Everything about the movie is inspiring and real. Starting from a successful Indian(NRI) well settled in USA, a Project leader in NASA, his vacation in India and thought of getting back his granny to USA, the stay in India for some while, seeing the real India across trains, boats, cycle rides, realising true worth as an Indian, and then leaving all these things yet again, making work priority over feelings and emotions, finishing off the work and then the great come back.

This is definitely not a typical Sharukh Khan movie, no melo-drama, no ultra huge sets.
There are many scenes in movie which remains glued to your memory no matter how much time may elapse. Writing this blog, just to pen them down and about a narration(from the movie) which keeps ticking in my mind daily.

* Throughout the movie, Mohan Bhargav is shown drinking Bisleri water, but when about to reach a station Ajite, a poor kid aged around 8 runs towards train, in one hand he has a bucket containing kullars(mud-glasses) and in another a water kettle, his clothes are dirk struck, too long for his little body but he doesnt actually have an choice, running shouting, *pani lo pani, 25 paise ka ek glass* to find one person who might drink water. He asks Mohan if he wants to drink, Mohan unable to speak just nods yes, takes water, drinks it and give kid 1 rupee. And then the train moves and kid collects that 1 ruppee, counts it with rest 4 - 5 Rs he has.

* When Gita is standing with her feet in water and Mohan joins her and feels the purity of water touching his feet. Later when in USA, he wakes up one morning and puts his feet on floor and is taken aback as the same feeling haunts him.

* when the villagers ask him about his job at NASA. He says that he is working on a satellite around earth to predict rainfall, the village elder says, "Yeh kaam tho hamra Sahadev bhi karat hai." And then, Sahadev looks upto the sky and says, "Aasmaan saaf hai, do din tak barsaat nahin hogi." And he says, "Ji, main bhi yehi kaam kartha hoon."

* The cute fights b/w him and Gita like the one when he is taking bath and singing song * Waitin for a girl like you* . Also the I-know-It-All types naughty smile of kaveri amma.

* The rejection of so called groom by Gita :-D coz they wont let her work after marriage.
*i need to know tht entire dialog*

* Hesitating to act because the whole vision might not be achieved, or because others do not yet share it, is an attitude that only hinders progress. - Mahatam Gandhi

* Now the best-est of all !! the last Ramayan scene. Heres those lines and teh reason behind writing teh blog:

Raam hi toh karuna mein hai,
shaanti mein raam hai
Raam hi hai ekta mein,
pragati mein raam hai
Raam bas bhakton nahin ,shatru ke bhi chintan mian hai
Dekh taj ke paap raavan,
raam tere mann mein hai
Raam tere mann mein hai,
raam mere mann mein hai
Raam toh ghar ghar mein hai,
raam har aangan mein hai
Mannse raavan jo nikaale, raam uske mann mein hai !!

It is Ram in tenderness
Ram is in calmness
It is Ram in unity
Ram is in progress
Ram is not only in his followers
but also in thoughts of enemies
ohh Ravan, try leaving the bad
and find Ram within u!
Ram is within you
Ram is within me
Ram is in every house
Ram is in every courtyard
Who so ever removes Ravan from within,
Ram is within him
Who so ever removes Ravan from within,
Ram is within him.

Alone !

2009-10-29T10:26:00.000-07:00

"Ever wondered y u r so alone !!" she cried to him saying "coz you don't let anyone come close !!"

He questioned with a smile, "You know y u r so alone ??"
"Coz !! You do !!

Robbie Williams - Angels

2009-10-29T10:25:00.000-07:00

Artist: Robbie Williams
Album: Life Through a Lens
Track: Angels
Year: 1997

A romantic number by Robbie Williams, which secured 3rd position in 2005 BBC Poll about the best song ever, just after Bohemian Rhapsody and A whiter shade of Pale.

My Interpretation:
Hearing it since last night, teh song has truly occupied me completely.
Beautifully composed and sung with an awesome video completing the perfect picture.
It's more about a Love lost, rather dead, but love is never dead, you love them as your guarding angels.

Video:
Watch Video here !!

Lyrics:

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
when I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know I'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

My Rating: 4/5

Collection - 9 LIFE [And last of my poems]

2009-10-29T10:24:00.000-07:00

life is full of exceptions:

excluding something/someone from ur life

with whom u hv grown, whom u hv known all ur life

and then u come across someone

whom u dont know, whom u never met

who is not a part of u

and suddenly he becomes a spl & important part of ur belonging, ur living

life is full of choices:

choosing someone to stay and

letting all other bypass

& u r damn sure that that "someone"

is worth all the pains u r taking for the choices made

life is full of battles:

a battle b/u urself and others

a battle b/w ur choices and others's

a battle b/w ur identity and others

a battle in which one wins and other looses

a battle of choice and exception making

& i dont want to b the one who lost my own battle

for freedom for my "self"

life is full of memories:

memories of ppl who were close to u

memories of ppl who created a difference in ur life

memories of ur loved ones

but u dont know when these memories becomes pain and

then u need to throw them out

life is full of dreams:

dream for a perfect future

dream of a perfect life

in which there's no choices to b made,

no exception handling

no worries of winning or loosing

and no painful memories

life is a search:

search for a person who completes u

search for that someone who whispers the words u need to uplift urself

search for a person who helps in forgetting bad memories

who stands by u in ur each n every battle

who helps u with choices and exception handling

search for a person who makes ur dream a reality !!

Collection - 8 A dream

2009-10-29T10:23:00.000-07:00

I stay up late at night, closing my eyes very tight.

Thinking of u, I picture a shiny day.

You are right there standing not so far away

Your beautiful eyes like two shining stars and that smile,

the one that makes my emotions pile

I close my eyes so very tight

As day fades to night

we're holding hands walkin down a moonlit beach
lookin up in the sky...with all the stars shining so bright

God this seems so right !!

As i turn, I see an angel

tyring to make out words, but they end up tangled

I lean over to whisper in your ear, to say those words so dear,
as i open up the eyes that i kept closed so tight

I picture us,
and only us tonight !!

Collection - 7 LIFE AND MORE

2009-10-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

There are no unrhymable rhymes..

there are no unhumable tunes..

there are no unreadable verses..

or unsingable songs !!

There are no indispuatble truths..

There are no unshakable hymns..

There are no unchallengable facts..

or unacceptable thoghts !!

There are no unrightwable wrongs..

There are no unforgivable sins..

There are no unforgettable tears..

or incurable scars !!

There are no unbeatable odds..

There are no unwalkable roads..

There are no impossible dreams..

or unachievabe wins !!

There are no unbelievable gods..

There are no unhonorable dads..

There are no unrespected mothers..

or unloveable lovers !!

There are no untouchable hands..

There are no unsavable souls..

There are nounsharable minds..

or unruled hearts !!

As each day n night pass by i dont ask much i just want u !!
my eyes said to u, life is near impossible to live without you !
They asked yet again, my life can it be lived without u ??
your eyes smiled and answered, There are no unliveable LIVES !!

Collection - 6 TILL THE END OF TIME

2009-10-29T10:11:00.000-07:00

I saw a dream,
dream of a day so pure
a day when we'll break free from the chains
& fly, fly till the end of time

I smelt a fragrance
fragrance of a person so pure
with a longing to search for that person
with a longing to hv that person till the end of time

I go back to sleep,
but kept awake
dreaming his dreams

whereever I saw, I found him
whenever I closed my eyes, I found him more closer
he's in my mind, in my senses all the time
I know its not enough
but still there is somewhere love so pure

Come, lets fly till the end of time
lets go places, where no one else has been
see colors no one has seen
dreams , no one dared to dream
a reality so pure, a reality of belonging
to this moment & forever
till the end of time!!!

Collection - 5 DILEMMA

2009-10-29T10:06:00.000-07:00

My world revolves around it
in fraction of seconds everything around changes
decisions I made long ago,
now seems a burden to me
now I wish to step back, to take it easy
but no, im forced to follow
I cannot leave I cannot stay
what to choose, what to leave I cannot figure
all I want is to "be myself"
all I want is to live my way

knowing what all I want, still I cant follow
what can b worse bbut to stay
buit this I chose and I gotta stay
what to do I find no way

Collection - 3 & 4 HEART AND MIND [Again]

2009-10-29T09:54:00.001-07:00

HEART VS MIND

what is heart and what is mind

i cannot decide what i feel is right

they say

mind matters and heart cries

but what matters and for whom it cries ?

Another one, on same theme !! Damn I used to be such a confused jerk :D

Don't know which way
your heart is leading me
Sometimes you're so far away
at times you won't let me be

Which way my love
is your heart leading me
Am I yours forever
or shall I set you free?

Collection - 2 TIME

2009-10-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

Days pass by
nights run by
months turns into years
n i shall stay always here!
a place so safe n secure
still it remains so cold
is coldness in me
or me a part of it
the years turn to ages
the ages moves into ashes
nothing permanent nothing false
we all have to move on
a phoenix comes n phoenix goes
days nights months years n ages go

Collection - 1 HEART AND MIND

2009-10-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

Heart and mind

where does the difference lies

if I keep myself first

I'm called heartless first
if I give others place
I'm called a goddamn fool
get thoughts in myself
I cant say its heart or brain
when my legs walk they say I walk
so when I talk y dont they say "I" talk
y a comprison of my thoughts
to cold and emotional always made
y my things cant b mine
y a thought cant b mine

And a new day will dawn !!!

2009-10-25T10:34:00.000-07:00

This isn't really my first ever post in the blogging world, but this is first over here to welcome you and mind you about my mindless ranting :P

Now that I have cautioned you, please read rest at your own risk.

This blog is just to leve out all the rest and start afresh !

Yes Indeed a New Day will dawn for all those who stand long and forest will echo with laughter !